12th jan

So, the past few days, I've written a few posts, and then eventually deleted them.
I had a pretty agro one. aimed at one person, then realised that doing this was not only petty, but just stupid. it ended in an argument. and i really don't like arguments. i always back down, and never actually say what i feel, and if i do, i'm normally work myself up so much i'm in tears and it doesn't really get your point across very well.
Then when all was sorted and hunky dory.(did i really just say that?) I posted a nice loving one. (ugh) I don't normally like those secretive statuses etc but i felt the need to, i dont know why.
Then after a bit of snooping, i've decided to delete that one too.
It's not that i don't feel it anymore. hell i really do. i really like the guy. (that's part of the problem)  and it's not that i feel stupid for putting up such a sickly post, i have no shame, so stuff like that doesn't bother me.it's just i don't know where i stand. i think there is an ex.. or maybe a current...girlfriend? i dont know. facebook snooping has been limited by private accounts, and secretive guys. i know i shouldn't but  you can't get anything from this guy. maybe this is all for the best, it'll make it easier when he leaves. (he is leaving, i'm not just being pessimistic) my resolution was to stay away from boys. so that's probably what i should do. and anyway, i'm being distracted so i can't complain!... tic tac toe at 2 in the morning will suffice haha. :)
that's enough ramble for today about that.
Had my first day back at Uni today, missed by first lesson, and then got to eat sweets in my second.
not too shabby.
I want to do a funny post soon, but for the minute i'm feeling really bleugh. and it's showing, sorry bloggerss.
when i have energy, and happy things, i will write about them. i'll go into depth about my Britney Spears party we're planning and  things like that.
but for now, it's nearly 2am and time travellers wife is calling me.

Ciao
xxx